Drowning In Thoughts Of You

help! its been a while.
since ive been the happy
giggly, FUN Ariel.
A few weeks ago, I was
this self centered, angry, bitch.
I was afraid of my own insecurities
I was trying to block out all the hate
that came to haunt me everyday
it wasnt easy, but im alive. =)
so many poems...left unwritten
because there was nothing left to say-
nothing else to write
so many dreams, forgotten
because i didnt know what to believe in anymore
Then...
There was you.
You came on my boat. (LOL)
brightened my world
with your warm brown eyes
the provided heat
to Ariel's body, which was dying
of Hypothermia (extreme cold-unsurvivable)
I was so sure. so confident.
I thought I had everything under control.
But then..
YOU LEFT.
You, little bastard.
you left me shivering.
trying to shake out all the truth in your words
trying to remove any thoughts of you
from my self-obsessed mind.
you didnt want this.
and i couldnt handle it.


(ANOTHER SONG LATER)

All i knew was.
music.
the ONLY THING
that i had
EVEN IF WANTED
to put EVERYTHING ON PAUSE.
It'd be there
when i came back.
you, for example, would leave.
somebody really needs to help me
this obsession isnt healthy
im drowning in thoughts of you.
But Then.
You came back.
You, smart little bastard.
I could see the light
not your ordinary "CLAP ON CLAP OFF"
this time i knew you were here to stay.
you were not going anywhere...every again.
& i know this sounds awkward
like some type of
mind-sucking addiction
but i need the satisfaction
Lets Hear It For ARIEL!
she actually gets to keep you, this time.
& I dont plan on letting go.
not until, i get my body to stop shivering
to remain at a constant temperature
everything about you is breath-taking
thats why you didnt get an immediate response
when you asked me out...
because you had me at
Hello.




everybody who knows me should know who this was dedicated to. IF NOT, you're probably that boy.