Bruises

Everyday
I have to see you
With your gorgeous eyes
and that grin that I very much enjoy
I have to learn how to
Move on with my life
Whether your in or out
Is it something that I missed?
Silence.
This is what I deserve
Silence
Fills this room
But no alcohol can fill my desire
Like you can
No love song can
Just make it all better
And you’ve heard it all before.

I can't win your losing fight,all the time.

Save me.
I’m a young, hopeful romantic
Looking for her
Edward cullen
Make me high off your love
Pot just doesn’t ease my cravings anymore
Take me to a place
Where we can be alone
Let’s create memories
That we’ll take to the grave
Provide for me
I’ll be here for you
No matter what you choose
Regardless of the mistakes you make
This is forbidden love
Upset the established order
And everything becomes
Chaos.

I used to know you, oh so well.

Little, tiny mistakes
Oh, where did I go wrong
I’d shoot myself in the chest
And bleed on you
Just to prove to you
That I have a heart to love you with
When I look into your eyes
Millions of emotions take over
Its very frustrating.
I’m still pondering
Where I went wrong
We aren’t necessarily star-crossed lovers
& I was never sure if we were
meant for each other
I’ve never loved anything
Like I love you
All I have left are the memories
There is something
That I see in you
It might kill me
and i want it to be true.

Colour Me Perfect

THIS IS NOT AN ACTUAL POEM.
THESE ARE RANDOM QUOTES THAT I'VE SAID
THAT SEEM TO MAKE ME HAPPY. =)
WHEN I THINK OF COOL LINES THAT COULD MAKE A GOOD POEM
I WRITE IT DOWN.
IM FINALLY PUTTING IT TOGETHER.
here we go...



I dreamed about you last night...again
I fall asleep on the floors in your local Irish Pub
and awake in your arms
Look up at the stars, and tell me if we're meant to be.
Our future is scattered. Like your life.
Floating away, lost in a cloud of despair
I ride my bike down this long road
Along the way, I keep thinking of
The weekend we were in love.
I gotta go, gotta get out of here
Gotta escape, but im tired of running from my fears
Its your turn, you go away.
Dont come back.
This is you, its not me.

Falling For All The WRONG Things.

I belong in a white room
With padded walls, a security camera
And an unsanitary toilet
I’m not much of an actress
But you definitely believe the show
I put before your eyes
My eyes
They lack depth.
These Lifeless, Black Pupils
See Past all the lies, the betrayal
The complications
And yet, you fail to love me
Let’s get serious, here
I’m the only one you deserve
Any other female with common sense
Wouldn’t waste her time
With a scumbag
But me...
I opened up, and let you in
LOOK WHERE THAT GOT ME.

An Unfortunate Reality

Your scent lingers on my clothes
Your touch gives me massive goosebumps
When you smile that crooked smile
Adrenaline rushes through my body
Take me away, take me to a place
That I’ve never been.
Who knows where our ending could be
Is this another unfortunate event
Ya Know,
You built a fortress round’ my heart.
This isn’t normal.
And you think, I’M in control
I envy you.
You think its all for fun.

Relax Your Heart, You Use It At All The Wrong Times

Breathe, love
Relax your mind
Don’t get to anxious
I sit here
And I wait
Listening to the rhythm of your heart
Listening to the lies resting in your soul.
I lay on your chest, like the way it used to be.
This area is dead.
And you attempt to fill it
With whatever is in the Brown Paper Bag
Just live your life, just a little
For me.
I had to empty my heart out
To match up with yours
Don’t you feel loved?
I feel useless
Your words don’t match
Your actions are misleading
Sometimes, I wonder
Are you without a soul?
Breathe, Love
Don’t get jealous
It was fun while it lasted
And time enjoyed wasting
Was never actually wasted

A Constant August Rush

My imagination
Took me to a place
Far away, in the unexpected
Land of Possibilities.
You don’t know what you want
I don’t either
My juvenile mind
Can’t seem to comprehend
The reasoning behind
Your actions
Your presence
Is a distraction to my
Entire being
You say, that I’m crazy.
Little do you know,
You’re wrong.
Let’s be patient
Lets wait this out
Explain to me
This conspiracy against me
I beg you,
Please don’t go
Stay right here

Mind Cleansing Silence

Everyday
I have to see you
And those gorgeous eyes along
With that beaming smile
Learning
I am, how to endure such pain
Silence.
I guess this is what I deserve
You’ve earned no better right.
I suffer, You Suffer.
Silence fills the room
Like water filling a dirty bathtub.
Cleansing me of all insecurities
And fears.
Pill Poppin’ Fiend.
I’m addicted to you,
And your masochistic ways.
You’ve heard it all before.

Why I Write.

Poems help me express that which is unable to be spoken.

In Great Need

How Do You Do It?
Share your secret, I'm begging you.
Please. I am in great need of an A+
Grade A love,
Grade A satisfaction,
Show Me that you are willing.
My Attitude deserves no attention
Maybe thats why you come and go
I can be anywhere I want,
As long as i dont get caught
Up.
In the flow of things
Im so nonchalant
It's killing me softly
My insolence is nothing compared
to my addiction.
I see you, I desire you.
Your voice sends chills down my spine,
You got me so fucked up
I cant even fit my thoughts
On this paper full of lines
Your smell is so luxurious
And I walk away furious
You left me, thinking it was all my fault
Sorry I'm not perfect
I can only try to play it off
Nothing ever goes my way
So why should I have faith in you
Unfortunately, I wont stop until I am redeemed.
You owe me
Your heart
All I want is for you to be happy
Don't you get it?
you win...gabriel...you win.
I suck at this game
& im about ready to call it quits
obviously my feelings,
dont mean shit.
I dont prepare for anything
maybe this is why,
I'm a slacker. I'm no good at this writing thing
But it cures my disease.
When there's nothing left
And I have no where else to turn to
(and Daniel Jacobitz is to hungover to give me good advice& reality check)
I sit on the deck. Pen in my hand
Waiting for my inner voce
To speak out
I can't hold this anxiety in
any longer.
My feelings can't get any stronger
show me a good time, get me drunk
you wont regret it
boy, take your time
lets take our time...take our time.